another summer without you x  / Kim Hughes (luv ya x )
Summers here again little man and your not, another summer without you, i just dont get how life can be just carrying on, i know i look like im fine,and normal even, but the amount i miss you is more than ever baby. i just dont think il ever understand it, or accept it baby, its just so hard without you, its easier now to pretend im fine, i geuss by now i should be.

i been thinking about you so much lil man, i sit an cuddle poppy and remember how we used to lay on settee together and watch dvd's, an i wish you was sitting with us, you probably are, but its not the same,im happy i have poppy, but so so sad your not here with her, i should have 2 babys, with me, not just a load of pic's and memories baby. i go and do normal things most days, but the whole time your in my head, and i just want to scream for you to come back, i just want you back lil man. 

as soon as the sun shone you would strip down to just your shorts, you loved the summer, and you was always more well in summer, i geuss your immune system coped better. our holiday to greece was the best though wernt it? just me and you, we had great fun at the different water parks, you was on every slide, even wanted to do bunjee jump haha, wasnt alowed because of your tube! but you was up for it! my mad lil man!

i just miss you ollie, i miss your hugs, your kisses, just you baby.
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going back to great ormond street, so hard without you ollie  / Kim Hughes (MUMMY)
hey lil man, i miss you so much, stil cant believe your gone. iv got to go to GOSH today with pops, its just so hard going back thier, i just dont wanna go. i know if you were here you'd be so sad for poppy, as you know just how shes feeling,its horrible watching her be so sick, just like you baby, i know you would be so sad for her. i wish you was here to hold my hand when i go back thier, with you by my side i could cope with anything, but now im not so sure.

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Happy easter lil man xx  / Georgina-Holly Clarke Mum

Have a wonderful easter Ollie, i no you will have lots of chocolate, yum yum xx.

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Rainbow Heart  / Ellen Gilmour (Friend of Nana )

I had an urge to send this today.. Lots of Love and Hugs ellen xxx 

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14months..........mi-ss you so much  / Kim Hughes (MUMMY)
hey lil man, i been to see you today an left you some new windmills, 14 of them up thier now!! i was sitting on the bench and just looking at your litle garden is so hard, its all i have left of , of our 4n half years,i just cant believe your gone lil man, 14 months an i still cant believe it. i been crying alot past few days, i just miss you, all i want is to have our old life back, to be able to do the things we used to do, i feel so lonely without you baby. i hate you not being here its so hard.

my life will never be what it was, i no that, but i cant help wanting and wishing. its all i want, just to have you back here ollie, where you should be. i get so fed up with smiling an laughing for others sake, when realy all i want is to cry, and scream, an shout that i want you back baby. it hurts so much that your not here.

i love with all my heart bubs, il never ever stop loving you.

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Happy 6th birthday Oliver xx  / Georgina- Holly Clarke Mum

Wishing you a wonderful 6th birthday Oliver, im sure your party celebrations are well under way.
Loads of love and Kissies 
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I love u baby  / Faye
Hi ollie your nearly 6 now and i still cant believe your gone i will love you forever ollie look after mummy and poopy love you forever see you soon love faye Close

Godbless sweet Angel xx  / Victoria Lestrange (Nannys friend from MM )
People say they’re sorry,
And they mean it from the heart,
But to understand your heartache,
They couldn’t even start,
To have a loss like you have had,
Is too much to understand,
We see it and we feel for you,
But it’s only secondhand,
You’re the ones who are suffering,
And we’re the ones who care,
But if there’s anything we can do,
Call us, we’ll be there. 

Such a beautiful Little Boy, just as you described hun.
Loads of hugs kisses and strength.
Vicky LeStrangeR

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Happy Birthday Little Ollie  / Jacqui (Treats)
Thinking of you Little Oliver and your family, hope you have a lovely birthday with all your other little friends there now in heaven.  God bless you all  xxxxxxxxxxx Close

Happy Birthday ollie!!!!!! 6 yrs old now!!  / KIM HUGHES (MUMMY!!!!!)
hey bubs, i am writing this now ollie as we'r moving house tommorrow and the net will not be back on by your birthday so i wanna say happy bday now bubs, your a big boy now, 6yrs old on 20th march! and poppy will have reached her due date!! 3months old. so its a special time for you both! we miss you lots an lots......

i'll always make sure poppy knows about her special big bro, the biggest angel in the sky. poppy has that yukky special milk that you had to have have, the one you hated ah lil man!! your like 2 peas in a pod!! 

i sat in your room 2nite packing your things and just sat crying for hours, i miss you so much lil man, your wheelchair is just sitting thier, and all your toys, and your clothes, everything! and just no you, it dosnt seem right baby.  so unreal.

i cant believe that you have been gone 1 year baby, 1 whole year. its so unfair that such a special little boy had to become a agel so soon.

you will probably be the funniest little man il ever meet, you always made me smile an laugh, even when i was upset an crying, you just had that way about you. always making everyone giggle. you kept us all going, we'v all kind of fell apart no wyour gone, i geuss things will never be the same again. not until your back with your mummy

iv bought lots of new windmills for you bubs, and il take you your balloon lik ei always do!! every 27th, every special day too! 

i love you with all my heart, your mummys big boy now, so you hav e to even more brave, an i promise il see you again, when its my time. i love you ollie with all my heart, and everyday i love you more, my memorys of you are all i have now, an i promise il never ever forget you baby.

lots of love an happy birthday , love your mummy an your little tiny poppy!! happy birthday bigboy!! xxxxxxxxxxx Close

For you all  / Jacqui (Treats)
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just to say ................  / Kim Hughes (MUMMY xxxxxx )
hi ollie, just had to write an tell you how much im missing you angel, i hate the fact that 1 whole year has gone by somehow, it feels like so much longer but strangely it only feels like yesterday baby.

 i hate the fact that your gone, i hate it that i cant hold you tight, that i cant laugh an play nomore.

i hate myself for crying, being sick, fainting , etc, in your last hours an not just talking to you,willing you to stay, but it was so awful baby, watrching you, watching you fade, it wasnt gentle, more horrific in fact, an it haunts me forever. i wish i had listened to the doc's when they told me you would not survive it this time, i wish i had listend, then maybe i could have let you go, maybe i could have, sat an talked to you, willed you to live, but instead i was crying, screaming an being sick, i wasted what precious little hours i had left. but the shock of it all made me so ill ollie, watching it, watching you, it didnt even look like you, thier wasnt one bit of your dear little body left to see, just tubes, wires, machines,it was as if it wasnt realy you. i worry so much you felt it all, that maybe you was hurting so bad but couldnt say. you know what? its still lik eits not real, like this isnt me sitting here, i mean how can a beautiful little boy, just be gone baby? i just dont understand, i never want to! 

i hate the fact that your gone, all i want is my little boy back.

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Oliver / Jane Bolton (your sisters mother in law! )
I wish I had met you, but in a way I feel like I have becuase I have heard so much about you from your wonderful mum. Oliver you really look like your mum and sister! All peas in a pod. Whenever I hear the name Oliver I think of you now and all of the funny stories that your mummy has told me. I have no doubt that you would have made me laugh as you seem to be 100% personality. A truly beautiful person. Your mum and sister have to be brave without you around, it just shouldn't be like that but it is. Your mummy loves you so much, it is apparent every time she speaks of you. I just wish I had met you x P.S - we haven't really set poppy up with her future hubby - honest. Close

missin you so much ollie xxx  / Kim Hughes (MUMMY)
hey lil man,  missin you so much, nearly your birthday, you would have been 6 this year, unbelievable as you never made 5! i alwasy wonder what you would have been like now, still the same cheeky lil monkey. iv been crying so much for you today, i just miss you so much, your all i think about, i just wana feel your little arms round my neck just once more, to have big squeeze like you used too. 

nothings the same anymore without you, i still laugh but inside im crying, to other people i look like im fine, but inside im dying. the loss of you physicly hurts baby, i geuss il never feel like the old me ever again. i just want my life back how it was, with you.

i know i have poppy now, but its not the same, an i love her lots just like you but she'l never replace my baby boy, il still never be that happy person i was when you were here, when you passed i lost part of me with you, i feel like i have a huge hole in my heart, forever to stay empty now. 

see.....im crying again now, i just miss you ollie , so much i cant even put it into words. 

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hi kim,ollie and baby poppy  / Wendy Bonella (mummys friend )
hi kim

Thought id come and say hi to Ollie and ask him what he thinks of his new sis, im sure he is so proud of you and Poppy and i know you are so proud of him for all he came through and what he has given to you .

i know he will be with Darren there is no way that cant be we found each other because of them and know they will be watching over us always.

Having hard day today myself but as you know they dont go away.

Well Ollie hope you and Darren are behaving yourselves and looking after your mummy and sister

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Believe always  / Ellen Gilmour (friend of Nana's )

Hi to Ollie's mum and Nana and little Poppy.. This was made for you by a wonderful Mom called Margaret.. I requested this as I feel Ollie wants you to have this.. Love and Hugs ellen (elly)xxx

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every tear that falls is a memory of you x  / Kim Hughes (ollies mummy xxxxx )
hey baby, 

missing you loads as always, 13 months you'v been gone today, its so hard to think that its been that long, it only feels like yesterday yet it feels like forever baby.

sometimes those horrific last hours are all i can see, blurring my precious memories of you, i have to shake them away, an see your smiling cheeks! i look at your photo's somedays and it kills me to know that you used to be here! right here with your mum.

i have all these pictures, an toys, an wheelchair etc........and your gone, to actualy believe your gone would be accepting an that would be too hard.

everyone at some time in thier life will lose someone close, but not everyone would be unlucky enough to lose thier child, an its very different for the mother, although it affects others, but not like a mother. when i was young an before you came into my life i could never have dreamt this life of grief for myself, never could have known that this would happen. i know if i did know i still would have had you, because even to have you for that short while was better than never to of had you at all baby. you were my life an always will be, now your just the biggest part thats missing.

the saddest thing about carrying on without you is that i know its forever, for good (in this life anyway). knowing that im going to carry this awful pain with me forever, always missing you baby.

i may laugh about things in the future an be happy again, but il always be feeling this pain, wishing you were here.

missin you so much baby, cant beleive youv been gone so long, 1yr has just flown by i can remember you so vividly almost like your here, but that hurts too,your pic's are so lifelike i just cry so much, i just want to reach in to the pics an touch you, hug you just once.

i miss you with all my heart baby. luving you forever xxxxxxx 


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Hello Ollie  / Shelley O'Halloran (Mums friend )
Hello Ollie,

I just want you to know that you were a special little man and so loved by the people in your life. I never got to meet you because I never knew your mum then but let me tell you, from all the stories she told me about you she brought you alive in my eyes.

You were a cheeky little boy and your mum made me laugh with some of the things that you used to say and do.

The times when I was talking to your mum about you, she had such love in her eyes for you, its as almost as if you were sitting right with us.

But then the love would turn to sadness as she would then relive that you were no longer here.

I just wanted to say that if your mums loved could have saved you, you would have lived forever. She adores you Ollie and you always will be her special little man.

I know that  one day when you meet in heaven she is Gonna pick you up and hug you so tight and never, ever let go, because she has found her little boy again.

You are so loved Ollie and your such a brave little man, I know you definitley take after your mum! Your mummy is such a special person and you couldn't have had a better mum.

I hope you are at peace little Ollie, give little Kezia a massive kiss from me and tell her I'll be up there to see her one day too.

Sending All my love little Ollie, I know your watching over your mummy and little sis Poppy.

Shelley xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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missin you so much oliver. xxx  / Kim Hughes (mummy xxxxx )
hey lil man, im missin you so much, its been a year now an my pain hasnt changed, im good at not showing it now, but its not changed, i just wish you were here, just wanna hug you so tight, an giggle like we used too. i dont think il ever believe that your realy gone, i just cant get my head round how you cant be here one day an then gone the next, you were so full of life, so happy an smiley, an now nothing.........

i always remember our best holiday ever in greece, just you an me, we had a great time, it so hot, an you we'r loving the swimming all day, diving in an out, you hada great tan, an the warm weather made you feel so well, you didnt want to leave, we went to a greek festival one night, an you saw a whole pig cooking, you didnt like that at all an nearly cryed! bless ya! an you wasnt keen on the beach, you liked the swimming pool better!! you made lots of freinds thier too.........everyone loved you! 

i wish i could go back to that time, to the happy times, the times were you were real, an you were here, not just a book of photos an memorys an just a dull ache in my chest. i just YOU back! 

i cant wait til the day when we'r together again, til i get that hug! 

i no i have poppy now, your new lil sis, but shes not here to replace you an never will baby, she helps me feel better, but the pain dosnt fade, its hard coz noone understands that, i think they all think its better now, but the pain of losing you will never leave me, in fact it hasnt even eased, its physical, it actualy hurts, my chest aches for you, you realy actualy can have a broken heart, i know that.

i just miss you so much, i still cry for you always, although i try not to, but i cant help it, i just want you back baby. miss you so much.


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